I keep forgetting to get my film developed. I have so many rolls and I don't know which is which or what time frame they came from. I don't even know where the ones from my vacation are. I'm pretty sure I lost one roll, 'cause I should have 11 and not 10. Ugh! And I feel so lame that I don't have the proper equipment to do it myself or have a high speed computer and a better digital camera. This fucking blows.

I haven't been able to draw anything. I have these images in my head but my hands are too stupid to figure out how to draw them. I wish I was one of those people who can draw what they see in their minds exactly. But alas, I can't.

And its not just the drawing that's giving me problems, its the writing too. I don't want to write what everyone else does. I keep having these ideas but the most I can come up with would be a one-shot. I can never figure out plots when I'm writing, I just go at it and try to make it sound stunning and amazing. And I usually like how it turns out, but I have no idea how anyone else feels about it. I don't have anyone who would read it and give me feed back on the things that I should change or elaborate on.